憧れは、自分で進んでいく未来
"Aspire to create your own future"
山崎 ひかり
Hikari Yamasaki
琉球大学理学部4年
4th Year Student, University of the Ryukyu
明日死んでもいい生き方してる？
"If you died tomorrow, would you be proud of how you lived?"
Ryukyufrogsに興味を持ったのは、キャリア演習の中で聞いたのがきっかけです。友人がfrogsに行くから自分も行ってみよう、という感じ。説明会で初めて知ったぐらいの程度で、ITや機械系も苦手な部類だったので、frogsに近寄るとは思ってもいませんでした（笑）。Ryukyufrogsに入る前は、外では快活に意見を言うタイプを演じていたけど、実は弱くて、周囲に流されていました。そういう自分に気がついたのも後からなのですが。
主体的にいたいと思いながらも、進路やキャリアなど決める肝心な部分は周囲の流れを意識していました。だけど、今でもその名残があってまだ悩んでいます。RyukyufrogsのOBOGや活動で関わる大人の多くの方々は、周りに流されずに自分の選択肢を選んで生きている人が多くて、当時の私は、自分とは真逆の生き方をしている人がこんなにもたくさんいるのだということを知りました。そして、弱かった自分、誰かを見て生きている自分を変えるきっかけをもらいました。
大学卒業後の進路を決めるとき、与えられた様々な人生の選択肢の岐路に立ち、右往左往していました。そんな時に友人から一言。「明日死んでもいい生き方してる？」すごい人たちがそういう生き方をしてきたというのは聞いたことはあったけど、どこか他人事に感じていたんです。でも、彼は私にとって身近な存在でありながら、「明日死んでもいい生き方」を選択していたんです。弱い自分なりに、その瞬間を決断する指針ができました。
大学院の進学を悩んでいたのですが、それはもったいない選択だな、と確信に変わりました。大学にいることが安心した状況。変わらない環境にい続けること。それは私にとって、悩みを先送りしているだけだと。人には「それでいいの？」って言えるけど、いざ、自分がそういう環境に置かれると先送りしようとしている自分がいたんです。
「不安はあるけど、自分で進んでいく未来のほうが憧れがある。」迷ったら、弱い自分の選択肢を捨て、憧れる自分を選択することに決めました。Ryukyufrogsを知らずに生きていたとしたら、誰かの成功体験を真似たり、就活の口コミで良さそうなところに行ってみたりとか、誰かに気に入られようとしたりするタイプになっていたと思います。いまは、自分で自分の人生を切り開いていくことを知って、それを始めたばかりというところです。
The first time that Ryukyufrogs caught my interest was when it was mentioned during a career seminar. I had some friends that were going to do it, so I decided I would try it too. Having only heard of it through a seminar, and lacking IT and electronics skills, I assumed I would never have anything to do with frogs. (haha) Prior to joining frogs, I was already the type to freely state my opinion, but in reality, my opinions were fairly weak, and as a result I was often swayed by the opinions of others around me.
Even though I knew I wanted to be independent, when making decisions about my career, I was overly aware of the thoughts and opinions of others. However, even now traces of that remain, and I still tend to fret about things. After meeting with graduates of Ryukyufrogs and the adults that help with the activities, I realized that there are a lot of people around me who aren’t swayed by the people around them, and all of these people were living their lives in the complete opposite way that I had been living mine at that time.Then, I received an opportunity to change myself and to stop being that weak person that only ever made decisions after watching others.
When it came time to decide my career path after graduating, I stood at the crossroads of the various lives I could lead, and I contemplated which direction I should go. At that moment, one of my friends asked me this: “If you died tomorrow, would you be proud of how you lived?”. I had heard that truly amazing people thought about things like that when deciding how they should live their lives, but it always felt like a foreign concept to me. However, someone with such a close connection to me was “living a life he could be proud of”. At that time, despite my weak mindset, I decided that would be my guide in life.
I had been thinking about whether or not to go to graduate school, but I changed my mind and decided that was not the right choice. Being in school feels safe. Its an environment that doesn’t change. That would just be putting off my fears until later.I can ask others things like “Are you really ok with that?”, but now I realize that if I had been in their shoes at the time, I would have put my fears off until later.
“Its not the most stable route, but its better to aspire to a future I create myself.”I decided that if I were to waver, I would throw away the choices made by my weak self, and make choices that would lead to me become someone I would want to look up to. If I had gone on without knowing about Ryukyufrogs, I think I would have become the type of person who copies others’ success, listens to gossip about the best places to work and allows other people’s views overtake my own.Now, I know how to open the way to my own future, and I just started doing so.
『自分はすごい存在じゃないし』と思っている人こそチャンレンジしてほしい
"The people who think they aren’t amazing might be surprised if they gave things a try"
現在(2016年9月の時点)は、介護施設で使っていただきたいサービスの検証実験に取り組み、2017年4月からは東京に住居を移し、勝負することに決めました。将来は、介護業界を変えたサービスが世間から認められ、多くの人を幸せにし、ちゃんとここで育ったんだと言える時に、Leap Dayの協賛企業席に座って、支援する側に回るつもりです。
「自分はすごい存在じゃないし」と思っている人こそ、Ryukyufrogsにチャレンジして、自分と違う世界で勝負・生きている人に会ってほしいです。そういう人たちに出会うことで、1歩踏み出そうという勇気やきっかけがもらえるはずです。
The first time that Ryukyufrogs caught my interest was when it was mentioned during a career seminar. I had some friends that were going to do it, so I decided I would try it too. Having only heard of it through a seminar, and lacking IT and electronics skills, I assumed I would never have anything to do with frogs. (haha) Prior to joining frogs, I was already the type to freely state my opinion, but in reality, my opinions were fairly weak, and as a result I was often swayed by the opinions of others around me.
Even though I knew I wanted to be independent, when making decisions about my career, I was overly aware of the thoughts and opinions of others. However, even now traces of that remain, and I still tend to fret about things. After meeting with graduates of Ryukyufrogs and the adults that help with the activities, I realized that there are a lot of people around me who aren’t swayed by the people around them, and all of these people were living their lives in the complete opposite way that I had been living mine at that time.Then, I received an opportunity to change myself and to stop being that weak person that only ever made decisions after watching others.
When it came time to decide my career path after graduating, I stood at the crossroads of the various lives I could lead, and I contemplated which direction I should go. At that moment, one of my friends asked me this: “If you died tomorrow, would you be proud of how you lived?”. I had heard that truly amazing people thought about things like that when deciding how they should live their lives, but it always felt like a foreign concept to me. However, someone with such a close connection to me was “living a life he could be proud of”. At that time, despite my weak mindset, I decided that would be my guide in life.
I had been thinking about whether or not to go to graduate school, but I changed my mind and decided that was not the right choice. Being in school feels safe. Its an environment that doesn’t change. That would just be putting off my fears until later.I can ask others things like “Are you really ok with that?”, but now I realize that if I had been in their shoes at the time, I would have put my fears off until later.
“Its not the most stable route, but its better to aspire to a future I create myself.”I decided that if I were to waver, I would throw away the choices made by my weak self, and make choices that would lead to me become someone I would want to look up to. If I had gone on without knowing about Ryukyufrogs, I think I would have become the type of person who copies others’ success, listens to gossip about the best places to work and allows other people’s views overtake my own.Now, I know how to open the way to my own future, and I just started doing so.
